Visionary Vanguard

2008-12-04T01:02:00.001+08:00

All Hail Debbie the Queen of BLOGGGS,
new blogskin thanks to her. I dont really know if I should keep it tho. HAHA.
my last one seemed so simple. Im gonna go to live journal luhh. =/ soon.

2008-12-03T22:00:00.008+08:00

Haha, I'm just damn happy today luh I swear, today can be listed down as one of my most memorable days, not cause of 1 thing, but alot of things happening at a chain reaction!!! effing insane.

First. See this shit. Damn Retarded.

Kah ho got a warning for drinking bubble tea at level "Y". obviously its level 4, but a stupid indonesian *Cough* DANIEL LAKSANA *Cough* thought it was level Y, because

Kah Ho: Eh Look, Warning at level Y.
Dan: Eh really ah, lemme see.
Dan :*looks and thinks*
Dan: EH REALLY EH! LEVEL Y!!!!!
(He still smile until so happy).

Went to the gym with Hairi, Damn shiok I tell you, the feeling of your muscles crying for mercy is insane. of course a couple of times i was like o my eff! help! he was like go! dont stop. dont rest. come on. 2 more 1 more! of course I got abit of revenge. telling him. Dont do 8, do 10!. when he was just reaching 8. can see his face abit buey tahan. but okay :D still good. oh and got back my EG2 (something like "A" maths but they put the word "Engineering" infront to make us think that it is very relavent to what engineering students would do. when almost half the book is like, can burn.) , so anyway, check out this insane picture:

My Marks got minus'd because I wrote the wrong class!!! Its supposed to be T1A4, wrote 1A4, as you can see. uhh hello? 1 T - 2 marks? crazy? hahaha Thanks Tutorial teacher who I shall not name. My marks were 31/38 i think. only 2 questions wrong. and like wrong units. how to minus 7 marks!? insane shit. this paper made my day.

and if that wasnt enough!!! something else happened. Someone told me something epic. I cant put it into words. all I can say is, Saturday is gonna be damn friggin insane. I swear. =D OH. Common tests are coming, I SHOULD start studying. but uhh. no mood luh. maybe next time.
my third blog post in 2 days, im really making progress here. =D

i like i like i like.

2008-12-03T01:34:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in life, you must do the opposite that you would do. and dare to fail.

2008-12-03T00:43:00.004+08:00

Okay so, I really have no idea what my last post was about the rapid share account, but i deleted it, probably cause, its gonna be fake anyway, and rapidshare is like OMFGAWDAMGUUUD. And Addictive I swear.

Lets check my downloaded list (most of which are shows that I havent watched before):
-Entourage Season 1-5(current)
-Gossip Girl Season 1-2(current)
-The Secret Movie-Law of Attraction (a Definite must watch)
-Heroes Season 1-3 (current)
-How i Met your Mother Season 1-4 (current)
-Reaper Season 1
-Band Of Brothers
-Summer Heights High
-Get Smart
-House Bunny
-Bourne Trilogy
-Harry Potter (to order of phoenix)
-Gears of War
-Fifa Manager 09
-Pro Evo Soccer 09

and loads of other stuff, All of which i downloaded in 2 weeks. Until of course. Account got taken away. 2 weeks is not the downloaded time mind you, its just the time where i bothered to select and click download. Premium User RapidShare is so worth getting, why?
YOU DOWNLOAD LEGALLY!, okay not the stuff like episodes and all. but the cops only check how much you're downloading, not what. and besides, you paid for the account to download, thus its legal.

Well, okay, so right now, my throats all swollen and cant sing or shit, anything that comes out of my mouth is *Cough**PHLEGM* *Cough**PHLEGM* i sound like an old man dying. oh and by the way, Daryl and I made it through to the Finals of the ECE Souls Of Entertainment (basically a singing competition for engineering students)
we cant really decide what to sing, so if you're reading this, tell me k?

SO FAR! we have decided upon Most Songs can be found on my Awesome Playlist :
-Dear Angel By April Sixth (check it out damn good song)
-Sunday Morning By Maroon 5
-Womanizer (cover acoustic version, man version as well)
-That Girl By Mcfly
-Obviously By Mcfly
-Miserable at Best By Mayday Parade ( again! same song for the audition)
-Six Feet Under The Stars By All Time Low
-Kiss By A Rose By Seal
-Because of You By Ne-yo

Thats not all though, I just Cant Remember. And Omg, Such a Long Post Since a Long Time.

Okay, lately, i've been sick, with the ultimate combozorzsrszzasxzxzxzxzx Flu, Fever and cough. noting like an insane mix of body aches, sneezing, and coughing, just to make your life abit more meaningful. I think its cause i went clubbing on saturday night, with Aaron, Arthur, Desmond, Lionel to St.James. We keep going there, dont know why, even though the DJ keeps disappointing us, i still dont know why we go back there. (WELL Maybe its cause of the GUEST LISTS!? JUST MAYBE!?) i might say, i am a sucker for free shit. "OMG FREE CLUB! MUST GO!" point is i was sick before i left. my friends say, i get psycho'd too easily. meaning i get talked into doing stupid stuff easily. i think its just in my pleasant nature, im too nice. and too random perhaps. i'll do any random shit anyone asks if its of course, do-able.

Right now, When i Look at Photos, i Feel so Damn Happy, and im laughing at them. HAHA of course they're not my photos luh, but im just saying. k totally random and out of the point. NIGHTS! Oh and by the way, I realised that most of my blog posts are like 60% clubbing, 30% RS stuffs and 10% about my life. hahahaha.

ROCK ON! \..|/ (Dont know if this is right, HAHA!)

2008-11-18T21:20:00.004+08:00

Well hello people, in light of the newest episode of Gossip Girl: The Magnificent Archibalds, I have decided to blog. Thankfully cause it's about time, people telling me to hurry up and post something, so here goes.

There comes a time when you are hit by a scenario like this "Your ex-crush/girlfriend whatsoever, gets into a relationship, well, because you didnt seal the deal, or afraid to at some point."

Now hit you in the face it gets you thinking, what stopped you? Why were you afraid, hmmm.

(Up to this point for those of you who didnt know the "You's" were actually me. Smack yourself. the You's are me.)

I dont know really. Why? so mysterious. As big of an ass I am, I'd have to say, I dont know. Maybe I am Superficial, I wanna find that one girl, that can wow me everytime i see her smile. Cliche i know, so lets skip it.

People People. Before you judge me, let me say one more thing. HELLO everybody is superficial. FACT. If not, why would you care what people said about your clothes, or people you hang out with HUH!? or maybe Your girlfriend next to you just cause she's pretty and you wanna impress, NOT YOURSELF, but your friends instead.

I know i know. omfg right? some people actually stoop that low. Getting with a girl to impress his friends. now that is just sick. FALSE. cant blame him, never can, its only in Singapore that you can find people like this. i think its just hard for people to "fit in" and "be popular" and shit know? but have a hot girlfriend around you, "WOW OMFG A NERD SCORED A MODEL". tahdah, there you go.

Oh if you think you're the one, you're probably not, and if you're the one, you're probably not either, ta ta.

Dunno why the fuck im typing this out and all. but WHUTEVER. haha. BYE

2008-11-12T20:27:00.002+08:00

Singing with Daryl was awesome, our guitar cover of "Miserable at Best" by Mayday Parade was awesome. We recorded it on my computer, something big is gonna happen soon. I can feel it =D

2008-11-07T01:16:00.002+08:00

Some people say, No money no honey, TRUE, some say, happiness is the gift of life, TRUE.
but somehow, when some people say those 3 words with 8 letters all, its kinda not. This post is all about this season.
singapores wetting and most heart breaking one ever. with now like, 12 breakups in my circle of friends.
what can seperate your thoughts now from right and wrong, when everything around you crashes and falls.
what more is there to do?

but yet again, the world works in mysterious ways, its like how i know that everything is gonna be alright.
and that i am destined for greatness,( i am not being cocky now, but really, i do feel like im destined for greatness)
soul of an artist, hands of a master craftsman. i cant help but think that we are the misery of our own demise, or joyfulness of our own feelings.
we are who we are. and we attract what we feel and think, thus something like "The Secret: The Law Of Attraction."
get what you feel and all, this "law" is the best thing in the world.

Right now, im feeling like crap, sick and all. Pouring deep emotions all, as people would say. this post is getting jumpy.
from here to there and all, getting lost just seems so easy in words.

2008-10-24T23:06:00.004+08:00

Well, today was an average day, until after school. Where Kah Ho, Pheobe, Lynnette, Jo, Wen Jie, Stefen and I went to K.A.P for dinner, it was effing hilarious.
this picture of stefen should summarize it. we were daring each other who could act like a stammerrr-errrrrr to the macdonalds cashier. so he went there and stammered " c-c-c-caaan i h-h-h-have a ch-ch-ch-chee-ze b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-urrrrr-gerrrrrr? P-p-p-p-plain w-w-w-with extra ch-ch-ch-chee-ze?" then she went "HUH?" so i went, umm what is it you want? , stefen repeated then i said, oh DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER plain with extra cheese. then stefen said, "and a medium COKE!" with his head tilted to the side as you can see above.

damn hilarious, at the side he suddenly act normal. i was laughing my ass off. then for the next few minutes we were acting like r-tards. damn hilarious. too bad this is the only picture tho.

then came the heart to heart talk. ok actually it was before the r-tarded-ness. but then i decided to give you guys happy news first. so you can concentrate on being e-m-o HAHA.

Why do you like this girl? and Why do you want to be in a relationship?

Kah Ho says: erm...
Kah Ho says: cuz being in a relationship actually is a kind of 'proof' that you love this girl...
Kah Ho says: and it means that you're willing to care for this girl...
Kah Ho says: and to girls, it's to show that you're hers, or she's yours...

stefen says: then you'd say, so the girl is so called 'sealed' as yours
stefen says: thats my answer
stefen says: but then theres more to just 'sealing the deal'
stefen says: there are sub branches to why
stefen says: bla3

Me: i think I'd like this girl for who she is and then again, its cause its a feeling i cant put into words, its like, HEY GIRL, SHOCK ME LIKE ELECTRIC EEL. TURN ME ON WITH ELECTRIC FEEL. know? and then there's that whole. being around her, i'll feel comfortable. i'll think about her when i'm not with her, type of feeling, and also now that stefen gave me this awesome quote, i really think i like her... haha.

Looks Captures the Eye, Personality Captures the Heart.

which is damn true, and to the relationship question, i think, i just want to be that sole person that she can depend on to be there. and that i can give my all to, be with her and not care about what she thinks i look like, do whacky stuff together. just be that person i can share everything with. maybe find my confidante in her. hahaha.

but yet again, these 2 questions will keep me thinking. this is where, i'll start to change, and not care about what my friend thinks about anything going on in my life, they dont like what im doing in my life, they can jolly well EFF OFF!. hahahaha. okay, until next time folks. ta ta!.

2008-10-23T00:48:00.004+08:00

Dear angel of mine, yeah,
Where do I start to express how I feel.

Hey world, so today was fun, went to school, with a positive attitude (as always, DUHHH). So had class from 10-2. had lunch break inbetween of course. after that, at 3-6 pm went with kah ho to student plaza for the NP@45 dance party. which is open to Ngee Ann Students only, which i think could be bull, cause i think other students would crash it. anyway. when i was there. i met new people. and i had lots of fun, although it was boring. hairi is just too cool of a guy, i must say, hairi, you are one damn cool cat. met Val and her friend Lydia, Val playing hotel626 is just damn epic, i swear, you have to see it for yourself.

oh wait, and before i say anything else, before i forget, daryl has been inducted into my "entourage" consisting of Kah ho, Stefen and I. We definintely like entourage, Stefen is like vinny, his attitude and all, Kah ho is E, loyal friend and just that hopeless romantic, I am like Ari, Foul mouthed but still very good of a person although he does the most bullshit things in the show, Daryl could fit the role of Drama, haha, just being the joke qualifies him.

So back to the day. After the 45th party thing, we ( Loga, Trey, Kah Ho, Keng wee, wen jie, marcus, pheobe, lynnette and Jo {hope i got everybody}) went to vivo, went to carls jr. and eat dinner there. Trey and I did something effing random, which i am, quite embarrassed to say. we went to the cinema to buy one large popcorn, hahaha and brought it to carls jr, ate it there, we kept saying im full, but then we just kept eating the popcorn, as wen jie said "Its the Hunger, you cant control it." (quoted from Heroes; Sylar). Damn Funny. we kept giving people powers like, how loga has the power to feed on peoples embarrassments, and Jo having the Power to feed on people laughing at him (or something like that).

after dinner we went to the rooftop, which was effing wet, cause of the rain, but we found a place to sit, just outside of this chinese restaurant, everybody was doing random stuff. i was just lying down, too bloated from the popcorn and carls jr combo. effing BIG lah. anyway. was too lazy to move. loga and jo started dancing, then when i wanted to join in, they stopped. but not cause they didnt want to cause i was there, but they were too tired. so anyway. umm. we played some thinking games. like "black magic", "party to the moon", "how many meh meh jump over the wall" and all that. loga was wols in thinking. but fast at certain games.

then everyone parted ways. but i had this nice and long, heart to heart talk to loga, which was quite nice cause i wasnt really close to him, but i think this brought us together as friends. (damn i must be more mature mentally of course). and then im home now. hahaha. gonna watch heroes and gossip girl.

oh and we had this talk which i brought up "How many friends in your life now, do you think you could keep as life long friends?" that question my friends are for you as well, think carefully. and answer truly. I KNOW I AM ON YOUR LIST! HAHA! anyway, nights alllllll

ROFL! V, see what you did to me? xoxo summore lah, oh and, awwww im your confidante. HAHAHA

N,
xoxo
(we quite pseudo-gossip girl)

DAMN I AM NOT GAY TA TA ALL. till my next post.

Oh and, before i forget, i thought i saw xing yue and ka wen at vivo. i didnt really know.

2008-10-19T15:38:00.002+08:00

okay so, this is for some people who are just feeling down, and think too much about what people say, and how it affects them. hope this could at least impact you abit.

Today is the first day of the rest of your life - abbie hoffman

Make sure you visualize what you really want, not what someone else wants for you. - jerry gillies

Everyman is the architect of his own fortune- sallust

What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us. -henry david thoreau

You dont get in life what you want; you get in life what you are.- les brown

There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self- aldous huxley

Its not what you are that holds you back, its what you think you are not.- dennis waitley.

2008-10-10T03:39:00.002+08:00

So, its late at night now, 3.40 am. Got back from malaysia around, 8? malaysia was damn fun, i spent 1000rm! WO BU HUI LIAO! (chinese for, i dont know already!) anyway, i bought a fred perry shirt for 369rm, which is S$150 sing? i look kinda good in it. Nick said, if i buy this, I better wear this for like, 1 month once. 3 days 2 nights in my aunts place was great, first day we were just totally finished. slept at 11pm-7am, my body clock is 8 hours, no matter what time, i dunno whats its problem dont ask me. the guys slept at what? 9pm? and woke up later than me. haha

anyway. no photos yet. but we had this insane collage of all our clothes. you see the plastic bags, you'd die. i hope this 1 berm 3 tshirts and 2 shirts would be worth my while. poly life really needs lotsa clothes, and i just got these clothes to match my Pedro Loafers.

I got really pestered to update my blog by janell. so like anyway. umm. what else? the food in malaysia was great? nick was an overall joke for NOT bringing his camera out, and leaving it in the house for the whole 3 days? WhaThEff nick. haha. hmm, aaron just was the number 1 idiot, he needs to get his brain washed. haha. vester and brian were average fighting for the number 2 spot of stupidest things they said. aaron totally topped it so, no question there. me on the other hand. just had a great time with great friends =D update another time. until then. CIAO. and oh. this is just random shit coming out of me. TA- TA

2008-09-23T10:37:00.003+08:00

Okay so, i think that i should blog now. ahha, I've just been wondering, like, wtf is life all about, so i've come to this conclusion that life is meant to make people miserable. like seriously. Life makes you miserable, and then sees what you do after you become miserable. Its like the saying "When life gives you lemons make lemonades", well eff the lemonades. When life gives you lemons eat the effing lemons. When life pushes you down, you pick yourself up . And i mean over and over again. this is the only time whereby we, as human beings, learn to walk through hardships. My life was never a walk in the park I'd tell you that. Whatever you've been through, I've been through worse. Trust me.

And now when all eyes are on me, to focus on what I want to do with my life and to support the family. I'm stepping up to the play, one step at a time that is. I finally understand how my father felt when he supported his family at this young age as well. I never really came to understand until now, when I have to do what I have to do. To those that I have told about what I'm going to do with my life, you guys know that I'm obviously sacrificing alot.

Everyday we learn more about ourselves, today I learnt I'm not that bad of a guy. Actually, I know that I'm nice, but to the extent of HOW nice, I just found out. All that's left for me to do, is to grow in mentality (maturity). Meaning, Growing in Thinking. If any of ya'll still dont understand.

When Life gets hard, you really only have two choices. And only one of those will work.

Until Next time Folks,
N.

2008-09-15T02:53:00.000+08:00

I found this while i was viewing someone's blog and found this rather interesting

From a guys point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room

and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD'
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you.'

Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the

need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'.
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.
On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it either.

Girls: I cannot stress this enough:
IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT

Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!

*****Give the nice guys a chance*****

> Holdin Hands-
> Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
> Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

> Cuddling-
> Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
> Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

> Movies-
> Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
> Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

> Loving each other-
> Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

> Laying below the stars-
> Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
> Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

2008-07-31T23:56:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ALEX

abit late ah, but oh well, i didnt have any pictures so i didnt have any mood to go blog about it on his birthday, well we went to Zouk PHUTURE. Damn cool. Took alot of Photos, and found my TWIN. (RON from malaysia) will put the photo below later.

Anyway, went for ECE bbq, found someone that looks like a friend of mine in secondary school, her name's juitwen. She's damn FUNNY LAH. haha. Also. also also also.... what else happened, oh oh! i watched bat man for the 2nd time, AWESOME again. best movie of 08, undoubtedly.

also also also also. went to malaysia again to chaotic for the weekend. hellalot of fun. although, it was kinda bullshit cause the immigration didnt let alex drive back in. nonsense to the max. ultima im telling you. shall not talk too much about it, dont wanna say shit.

what else what else what else. OH! my NP mentor *form teacher* said good things about me to my mum, im like whaddaeffff??? wow, thanks mdm koh, but what did i do? haha.

umm umm umm. i think thats about it, oh yeah, forgot to mention a small little detail today. Stefen, Kah Ho and I whacked 44 soft shell crab temaki's, thats the flaw in sakae sushi's buffet HELL YEAH! haa k so photos below. 44 temakis not counting the sushis yet. for $19 bucks a person service charge and all included. DAMN its GOOOOOD

Second picture, guy to the left, looks like me? you be the judge, I'm OUT!

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday, if ever you love me, you'd say it's okay

Yellowcard- Empty Apartment

2008-07-22T01:25:00.003+08:00

GUYS IM BACK! just to honor Heath in the best Performance of his life, and the best i've seen in all the movies so far!

There are two main questions being asked about this movie - does it live up to the hype and does Heath Ledger give the performance of his career? The answer to both questions is a resounding yes.

Ledger, who died in January from an accidental overdose, has given the world an iconic performance in his last completed role and should rightly get an Oscar nomination next year.

He wasnt acting as the Joker, he WAS the Joker.

Ledger's performance is also the most interesting thing in the film, and when the Joker is absent, The Dark Knight loses most of its energy and dynamism.

The Movie was So Awesome. Like Morgan Freeman. He was great.

There are some flaws - the movie's two and a half hours length does feel a bit long, some scenes are a little rushed and Gyllenhaal, fine actress that she is, gets very little to do.

But they are minor quibbles. The Dark Knight is a thumping great action film which grabs the audience by the collar from the first scene, throws them left-right and centre before leaving them crumpled up in a sweaty heap by the time the credits roll.

All I Have to Say About This is, You come away impressed, oppressed, provoked, and beaten down, holding on to Ledger's squirrelly incandescence as a beacon in the darkness.

We miss you heath.

2008-05-23T00:08:00.003+08:00

Man Utd are the Champs of Europe Once again!

Never have i felt this way about my Side, My Team, My COLOUR before.

After Dominating the first 30 minutes of the game, Man utd Manged to Net One in, Again, By the magnificent Ronaldo, who scored his 42nd goal this season, Chelsea finally started to fight back. And with a minor blunder by Man Utds Back 4, Chelsea's Lampard Scored the equalizer as the ball made a double deflection of 2 Utd Players.

After the Break, In came a new and refreshed Chelsea, Determined to Win The Uefa. They Came back, Hitting hard on Manchester United, Hitting the post several times, It wasnt Chelsea's day, as you can see. Manchester United was not going to budge. No MORE goals for Chelsea.

Extra Time, flew by swiftly, and i kept jumping around, and i admit, i swore at the Chelsea players, especially Drogba. SAYONARA, live with the guilt Droggy. Penalties are here!

United and Chelsea penalty takers were doing well.
UNTIL! RONALDO! OF ALL PEOPLE MISSED!
with 1 penalty down. Manchester uniteds Van der sar had to make a save or hope one of Chelseas takers were to miss, and sure enough, Terry missed the penalty. What a role model. A captain missing the winning penalty on the game of their lives. sure enough, the game was back on. Anelka stepped up to be the last penalty taker, and his Kick got Saved. Van Der Sar is SAVIOUR!

From Zero to Hero i'd say. Van Der Sar didnt had a bad game. he just wasnt on form. but this was greatness. This will be the most historic match of Man Utd for a long time.

Glory Glory Man Utd! Glory Glory Man Utd! Glory Glory Man Utd! And the Reds Go Marching on! ON ON!

One United- Form is temporary, Greatness is Permanent.

P.S i was too bored to blog about anything other than this, since Man Utd is my team, and since they havent wont Uefa in 9 YEARS!!!

2008-04-29T23:52:00.002+08:00

HEY! i finally had the mood to blog, since, my last post? 2nd may? LOL! thats damn long ago, now, let me tell you about POLY, what a nice life i have there, lol, its been real good, made alot of friends and seen alot of rainbows ;) but more rambos to be exact.

mondays and thursdays are my favourite days, particularly cause of one reason, my class 1A4 knows why, LOL and i shall keep HUSH about this secret =|. anyway, have been deciding to go for what CCA, i'll go for Canoe Polo!!!!, wait a moment please, yeah, NEXT WEEK!, adventurous! AMAZING! lets hope i can keep this enthusiasm till next week comes and see if i really go huh? lol. well lets see lets see, my bestie in school is Sabrina (SABS for short, lol thats what i call her), yeah a girl, you dont have to jump and down in disbelief, yes its true, my bestie is a girl, LOL so what? i dont care.

Giving up on Dota or DOTZ as i prefer to call it, quitting, gonna start WOW soon, as in Retail WOW, sorry guys, no more private, time to go for the real thing, make sure i do reach 70 this time k?

homework has been shit for me too, never really DID any yet, CHEAT? (yes), Copy? (yes). Self study? ( no way ). lol. as you all can tell, im not the sort that does things on my own, i dont like to be or feel alone, i am independent yes, i just hate being a LONER. Thank GOD i got ppl to shiozarama with, LOL. Insider Lingo. anyway, my birthday just passed, i should change my age on my profile right?, should i?, nah too lazy, i'll find one fine day.

went to sentosa to get a tan after 1 drinking fiesta whereby nick got insanely drunk and couldnt think straight, drank after that again, at sentosa, GG for me on sunday, i didnt sleep for 3 days in a row, Thanks Man Utd for losing against chelsea and drawing against barcalona at home, i knew ronaldo missed the penalty on purpose and i knew man utd let chelsea win, just to make Man Utd's Double This season more Historic. LOL, kk the mood for blogging is fading away. Blog some time later, no really, i REALLY mean later.

2008-03-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

4 Days In Johor, (C.H.A.O.T.I.C)!

Day 1

Okay, The journey to Johor was a horrible one, trust me if you were me, you'd die.
7 people in a 5 seater car, imagine the scenario PLEASE!. LOL, and also, imagine, JAM, ah hah.... now, can you imagine? :D up till now, i havent even finished the P.S I Love You book. dont even get me started about watching the movie, i dont wanna watch it till i read it. guess i have to go back to malaysia then, DVDs!!!! lol. k, after the squeeze from Singapore to Johor, we immediately went with alex to get his hair done, which looks better by a milestone. From Green highlights, to Silver-ish blue, kinda cool if you ask me.

Brian bought an Ape Hoodie which looked awesome on him, damn nice, splendid buy =D, he couldnt take it off for the whole night!!!! haha. we ate dinner at "sa lao" which is "3 levels", the food there is the shit, really. better than singapores "Long Beach" anyday.

Hmm after that we went to K.S to get a little dota action. LOL had lots of fun, *SKIP*!. then we wanted to go to "Lok Lok" which is a road side stall where they cook stuff like mushroom and sausages for you. That is another Serious Shit. LOL damn nice. then we went to my favourite........ SHI SHA!, i seriously think i'm fitted for it, really lol.! hey its healthy smoke, why not yeah? of course, nick and alex didnt have any, but aaron brian vester and myself had one each! LOL!

After the Smoking madness, we headed to K-Tv, lol, it was really wild, one i'll never forget, it was the most fun K-box session we've been so far. For me at least. went home around.... I think i was pretty much stoned out, forgot what we did before we went to bed. LOL!

Day 2 + 3 + 4

Woke up by the sound of " Xiao di men, Ji lai le, ni men yao bang aunty zhuo yi xie dong xi ah~! "

haha, that was alex's mum waking us up to help her set up tables for alex's fathers birthday which was on the 29th of febuary, which is Unlucky in a certain way cause it happens only once every..... 4 years? lol, but on the other hand, it is lucky, in what way i do not know yet. haha

lets see, after helping out and stuff, it was around 4 plus 5? we went to go check if aaron can vester could go get their razor "mice". it was reserved for them until 1 am. when they could go collect it. got back, changed and got ready for the big party.

I must say, alex's day really knows how to celebrate, NOTHING BUT THE BEST. really, Lots of martell, beer and people. We ate like we never ate before, lol, i drank beer like water. really. i was stoned that night. we went to karaoke, had a blast, i think, that was when the boys and I met alex's cousins, Adam and Wendy, their voices are the shit, they can sing VERY VERY WELL. Of course all of us got owned instantly. lol. Cant remember being drunk, but i think i was acting my fun self, instead of the composed and shy self. LOL. met dianne ( i think this is how her name is spelt ) anyway, she's real cool. Ryan was there as well. LOL alex's cousin, he is cute, i swear, LOL now im starting to think im a pedophile, please God, tell me im not. lol. i think i had one beer too many, cause when we reached K.S i pretty much was K.O until dunno what time, when we had lots and lots of fun, lol. at 8 oclock we went to eat Niu Rou Mian. the journey for us was almost coming to an end. when we all decided to ESTANN, lol (extend) our trip.

we slept till God knew when, and went to have dinner with alex's family again, dunno what the restaurant was called, but it seriously serves nice fish head curry. after that we headed to Diannes house, for karaoke, lol, its like very night karaoke here in johor. anyway, her house is seriously, indescribable. Could cost around 10 million i swear. after that we went to K.S again, im telling you, the games we played, were damn crazy. we played till 8 oclock, and went for prata after. which is quite nice really, i must say... then hey hey ho ho hi hi he he and we're back in singapore, dun wanna go through the lousy parts, tata SLEEP SLEEEEEEP

2008-02-21T03:30:00.001+08:00

The Band I Like now, That is Equal to RJA and Paramore IMHO. LOL!

Thx nick for introducing me to this band, now i cant go to sleep without listening to their album. LOL! Their Songs are WICKED, too damn awesome, for someone like me, this is one where rock appreciation comes into place. haha :D LISTEN!.

Not for the faint hearted :D tata

The words are coming I feel terrible
Is it typical for us to act like this
Am I just another scene
From a movie that you've seen 100 times
Cause baby you weren't the first or the last or the worst
And I've got to fill the blanks in the past with a verse
And we could sit around and cry but frankly your not worth it
Anymore

[Chorus]
So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

On any other day I'd shoot the boy
But your simple toy
Had caused a scene like this
Leave him hanging on the walls
Just a picture in the hall
Like 100 more
Consider this as a gift as you taste him on your lips
And he's making you scream with his hands on your hips
I hope he's leaving you empty baby this is just a fix
For such a simple little whore

[Chorus]
So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Whoa whoa whoo whoa oh yeah

And your name remains the same
All that has changed is this pretty face
So pull the trigger
It never gets closer
You want to start over
But never start over

So pull the trigger
It never gets closer
You want to start over
But never start over

[Chorus]
So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Let's sing lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Say hello say hello who oh oh ohh

Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry
And...

2008-01-29T00:38:00.000+08:00

It feels SO GOOD to be back in singapore,
altho, the passing of my grandfather was a sad moment,
he always said, home is where the heart is,
and that is true, My koong koong, IS a great man,
he's not forgotten, cause he's always living in our hearts!

CHEERS to the LOONG family,
we all know that he went peacefully which was a good thing, although we would have loved to see him come through yet another crisis like, in 98' when he suffered the stroke, or in 06' when he had difficulty, breathing. He is my HERO, MY SUPER MAN :)

Being back in singapore feels great,
yet i wanna go back to malaysia,
dunno why, hmmmm.
Looking Forward to Paramore performing in Singapore,
PLEASE COME TO SINGAPORE! THANK YOU!!!!

met up with the guys, they missed me..... *AWWWWWWWW*
hahahaha
back to the life or a pro. dota player is stressful,
life in malaysia is really REALLY simple and easy,
well, maybe cause im a singaporean where the exchange rate is like.... 2.3~! hahahaha
so cheap food,
cheap dvd,
cheap clothes,
what more can i ask for!!!!!! YO HO HO! A MALYSIANS LIFE FOR ME!

Btw : random thing here: saw this on friendster bulletin. LOL! it is DAMN TRUE

ENJOY!

Guys hate sluts even though
they
have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if
you've slept with more than 6
guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd
like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message
like "You know
what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he'll
assume he did something wrong and
he'll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when
courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn't
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then
we're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he's just actually
saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously,
listen to him. It doesn't happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don't say you aren't. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don't want you to
disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he's definitely
thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch
harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy,
just do it. Don't say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren't interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.

Hottest girl, singing the Greatest song EVER

2008-01-17T03:34:00.000+08:00

i Just had to post this... right after i saw it, and she singing live is just the best, really.... :D

2008-01-16T11:53:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD!
firstly, im back at CHURCH
2ndly, Vend|us has found a new home,

EVOLUTION SQUARE, our new house clan / sponsor, =D

3rdly, I've caught up with Steffy again, LABBIT as she likes to call herself, cant really forget that smile anyway, she's still as cheerful and bubbly as ever haha oh yeah! and she blogged about me.... awwwwwwww shhhooooo shweeet... LOL WTH!

ok hmm.... next... I got myself the new LACHESIS RAZERRRRR ZOMGBBQWTF!!!! hahahaha
it looks damn awesome... feels damn awesome as well!

Equipped with the revolutionary 4000dpi Razer Precision 3G Laser™ sensor, the Razer Lachesis™ gaming mouse takes on the same lethal traits as its namesake that will send shivers down your enemies’ spines. Add 32KB of onboard memory, nine programmable Hyperesponse™ buttons, as well as an impressive 1000Hz Ultrapolling™ with 1ms response time, and you’ve got a formidable weapon in your arsenal of destruction. Victory beckons – move in for the kill.

4000dpi Razer Precision 3G Laser™ sensor
The Razer Lachesis ™ reigns supreme with a true 4000dpi 3G Laser™ sensor, which enables movement speeds of 5 times that of a standard 800dpi optical sensor. View the Razer 3G Laser white paper

32KB Razer Synapse™ onboard memory
With a 32KB onboard memory, you can store up to five unique gaming profiles.

Nine independently programmable Hyperesponse™ buttons
The Razer Lachesis™ allows programming of button functions while Razer’s Hyperesponse™ technology reduces latency for optimum gameplay.

Doesnt she sound awesome? hahaha, How about its name is
Lachesis
Function: noun
Pronunciation: 'lak-&-s&s
a: the largest pit viper in the world
b: Latin. Bringer of silent death

Thats what the website says :D anyway, going shopping for chinese new year clothes soon hope i get some goooooooodddd starrfffff :D LOL

2008-01-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

TEAM VENDLUS not vendlus waesa lol!
okay this is just the interview from which we won 2 rounds in a row, obviously we had potential LOL!

LOOK AT ME!
PUSH AND WIN
wthell was that? lol, sounded like a dumb EFF but its okay :D

havent been blogging much, lazy actually,
team vend|us is top 16 in capl winter season
we shall improve! definetely :D

if we can go all the way, WHY NOT!
hahahaha seriously, this interview is half retarded, everyone was like wtef? we are getting interviewed? no time to go toilet and be proper, lol....

alot of stuff has been happening lately, just waiting for this interview then i'll post, but when it finally came, i guess i forgot what else i wanted to blog about... LOL! so heres the interview of Team Vend|us =D

2007-12-22T03:18:00.000+08:00

Celebrating...................
what again? haha
dunno what, but im at felix's house, drinking and talking cock,
really never spent so much time with him anyway,
thought today would be good....
thought Bryan and Felix how to play Texas Hold'em...
they're pretty good....
Psychological warfare is there....
just gotta know when to UP and when to fold... lol!

as for Dota....
VnL, lost to Dn'girls...
i thought that we should have lost anyway,
we werent ready...
no plan, no strategy,
its like walking into a room full of terrorist with 1 knife, yes, you may kill 1 or 2, but then in the first place why the heck did you walk in with a knife and not other things???

we weren't organized enough so hey, we gotta give Dn the credit of beating our asses upside down.... INSIDE OUT! hahaha....

as for ALEX + NICHOLAS....

WE'RE MISSING YOU! JOKES!!!!!!!! COME BACK FASTER, SOONER!.... lol

2007-12-16T17:34:00.000+08:00

Hi world! the past 2 days have been awesome so far... although it's just filled with dota and stuff.... but hey! i went to watch "Warlords" at 3.05 in the morning, at Cineleisure, the show was great, i mean REALLY good....

One Brother was filled with Ambition, The Other, Loyalty, The Last, Integrity, its just a damn good show, can be compared to "300" in my opinion anyway, funny shit happened this weekend eh?

i caught nick on video going crazy over a stupid game... SERIOUSLY, and i cant upload it, cause i dont have his permission, so yeah haha... what else what else? i think thats pretty much it eh.... we were just chaotic this weekend.... monday work starts again.... SHOULD I QUIT!?.... haha i like the money... i just dont like the boredom of working.... lol ahh well... im bored, might post another entry later.... bhye~

First day of work, Paper cuts are effing irritating

2007-12-13T23:06:00.001+08:00

Starhub, i never knew money could be given to those who call work, sitting down and talking... haha =D first day of work only tho, might get hectic tomorrow... My schedule is jammed packed, i regret working, seriously... im too lazy! why cant money just find its way into my pocket magically?

Yes and Paper Cuts ARE EFFING IRRITATING.... i swear, they are small cuts that can irritate you the whole day... darn you starhub, you gave me paper cuts... haha... dont you think paper cuts are irritating as well? they are so thin, if you put a plaster for it you're gay, but at the same time, they can be deep as well and seriously, they can be quite pain... how?

(add soap, shampoo and facial wash to the wound and ta-dahhhhh BURNING SENSATION!) hahaha

i think thats all for now.... im as tired as a............................. i just can describe my tiredness.... TAH TAHHHHHH

2007-12-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

My hair is going to be dark brown!!!!
or so i hope, no black dye anymore, so how?
dark brown should be okay.... right?

adecco finally called me.... IM A WORKING MAN AGAIN!
ahhh... no more green punkish hair!
is that a good thing or a bad thing?

NICK THE JOKE ASKED ME NOT TO SLEEP!
its practically my fault as well, cant blame him, we watched "WET DREAMS" ( some funny korean show about 4 horny 14 or 15 year old boys, hahaha) so anyway we didnt sleep, until like 4.30 where we were like... seriously GO TO SLEEP, too late i guess, by the time we got all settled and seriously want to sleep, it was 5 am.

and nick was going, eh nicki, seriously, we cant sleep anymore, if we sleep we'd probably just wake up late the next day for lunch.
then i was like, whatever ah.... we ended up playing "push-up poker", and "pumping in-between" (card games, gambling with push ups) haha

lunch was kinda awesome i guess, met lynn, nicks friend, she turned out kind of friendly.... and oooooooh! i was like the waiter, hahaha, or i felt as in i was the waiter, we were just bs-ing and calking lots of tock... haha...

after lunch, i just went back and tried to sleep, but then there was a funny show on t.v, and i had to WOWzzz IT, so couldnt really get any shut eye, lets see... what else..... oh.... Farm called me and said there was training at 8 p.m at dhoby ghaut... LAZY TO GO!... luckily there was alex, if not i'd die ah.... confirm dont want to go one... so after training,

here i am, in the living room, the place where i call MY ROOM, haha sleeping on the couch is so COMFY! and and and.... my lap top is here, and im lazy to bring it up and down, so yeah.... just waiting for my hair to be dyed before i go K.O on my new bed called C.O.U.C.H!

TAR TARRRRRR

2007-12-12T02:18:00.000+08:00

Never thought that i would find,
the one who'd steal my heart.
Someone who i could give my love,
right from the very start.

It seemed like there was nothing left,
all hope was gone from me.
I'd never find that special girl,
it wasn't meant to be.

But then one day to my surprise,
Inside my world you came.
And from that moment on,
I knew i'd never be the same.

As i close my eyes tonight,
I'll pray as i ought to do.
I'll pray that you'll realize that,
I'll never stop thinking,
Thinking of you.

2007-12-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

Tick tock Tick tock goes the bloody clock,
its raining to heavy i cant go home,
im at alex's place as i write this, that lazy shit is still sleeping, but cant actually hold it against him, he is one insane guy, test today and stayed up whole night studying... if i were him, get some sleep at least?
and im nice enough to stay up with him till he got ready for school... which at that point i just couldny take it...
he is lucky he has such a nice friend SUCH AS I! wahahaha
anyway, lets see....
i stayed up with the help of pirated dvds from our malaysia trip the previous day...

THANK GOD FOR PIRATED DVD's!!!! =)

evan almighty was nice..... i just watched it.... lets see, im getting some quotes just to make this post look longer =D

Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

I SWEAR THIS HAS GOT TO BE THE BEST SHIT EVER! meaningful aint it?

How do we change the world?
with an act of random kindness
A.R.K

well thats it... couldnt find anything inspiring from at worlds end, POTC .
BUH BYE!

2007-12-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

I Am BACK!!!!
after not blogging for half a year i am finally back, can any1 believe it? maybe i'll consider writing poems again... maybe, just maybe.... haha

so anyway.... i'll been training with the team lately....
omg my thd is starting to get gay... seriously.... not up to standard tho.....

gone for an interview today.... the guy said my hair needs to be dyed black... wth? maybe i'd just spray it back? and see how it goes? i dont really wanna dye it back so fast... i mean... COME ON! i just got it dyed... altho i dont mind... cause i paid for it in RINGGIT haha =D thank god for the high exchange rate =D

had pepper lunch for dinner..... yes... LUNCH for DINNER hahaha... total expense on cab today must have totalled to around 20 dollars.....
1 cab from timah to town,
1 cab from town to AMK,
the last cab from AMK to Timah.
CAKE BODOH!!!!!

haha.... now im just at home, watching wrestling.... oh my..... i miss AUSTIN! 3:16 baby! but thats like... 5 years ago....or maybe even more..... Y2J is back tho.... story line for WWE should get better than it already is.... hope to see what happens... oh... getting ired now buh bye!

P.S.... NICHOLAS NG IS A BIG.....

JOKE

2007-07-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU

try this, go up to a good friend ( guy / girl ) then seriously tell them I LOVE YOU...
dont laugh or fidgit... give a straight face... and keep repeating it.... this is a VERY POWERFUL process...

Im missing EU..... how come im feeling this way? can i cry?... haha... im not even seeing ryan, taki and brent off lah.... i cant see the assist team until august.... i cant see Shannon anymore... she's going australia... FUCK MAN.... does anybody know how im feeling? I NEED HUGS!!!!!

FREE HUGS! FREE HUGS! FREE HUGS! FREE HUGS!!!

No body realises that EU is such a powerful program.... i myself didnt know it was so powerful until i started to miss it.... the human body has 3 needs, Water, Food and LOVE.... I NEED HUGS.... i want to express myself... who can i hug? Im just emo-ing..... if guys are reading this... ASK ME! I will bring you to EU!... if girls are reading this and u think im gay/ wierd... its not that... its just that EU is so damn great.... i want MORE EU!!!!!

Can i have a temporary girl friend? =)))) hahahha.... JUST KIDDING...... i want a good friend that i can say I LOVE YOU to and not feel awkward.... is that so hard to ask for???

SHE'S DECEPTIVELY PROMISCUOUS
DOUBLE STANDARD EVIL BITCH
AIN'T NO PLOT THAT SHE WON'T TWIST
AIN'T NO DRAMA SHE WON'T MISS
TO ME CAUGHT UP IN
AIN'T NO MAN SHE WOULDN'T USE
EVERY WAY SHE BENDS THE TRUTH
BET YA SHE'S JUST LIKE YOU
ALL THE OTHER LADIES TOO
COULD YOU ALL BE THE SAME
BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD TO DRIVE ME INSANE

IF YOU THINK I'M GONE THEN PROVE ME WRONG
I DON'T WANNA SING THIS SONG
I'D RATHER KNOW A GIRL'S OUT
THERE TO HELP ME TO MOVE ON
IT'S BEEN SO LONG I'M NOT AS STRONG
I DON'T WANNA SING THIS SONG
SO PLEASE OH PLEASE JUST PROVE ME WRONG
PLEASE JUST PROVE ME WRONG
YOU AIN'T GONNA PROVE ME WRONG
(chorus)

I BET YOUR A SECRETLY PROMISCUOUS
HYPOCRITE AND EVIL CHICK
DEVIL IN DISGUISE
FIRE BURNS BEHIND YOUR EYES
BUT I HOPE THAT YOU'RE AN ANGEL
I CAN'T LIE NOW I'M JUST ANOTHER PESSEMIST
NO FAITH IN FUTURE LOVING BLISS
ONLY IN PERSUASIVE KISSES
COULD YOU ALL BE THE SAME
BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD TO DRIVE ME INSANE
HELP ME SEE THROUGH THE SHADOWS
OF WHAT SHE PUT ME THROUGH
CALL MY NAME AND SET ME FREE
LET ME KNOW SHE'S NOT LIKE YOU

2007-07-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

Its time to blog about something thats sensible....

okay... so i dunno... i've been doing alittle soul searching for awhile.... but whats this that i found out? that love is something very delicate.... Made easy Breaks fast...

i dunno whats up but its simply like this... one msg from anyone could be something...
like how guys msg girls first... yeh its normal but then wouldnt it seem that it's obvious that the guy likes the girl? or if the girl msgs a guy at random... thats too obvious now isnt it?

what happened to the good ol' days? when smses seemed to be like SHIT compared to the normal talking of human voice? calling instead of msg.... man that would be cool nowadays wouldnt it? and how if you stopped msging a person for awhile.... lets say your girl friend.... heck they'd probably break with you soon after.... its like what the fuck.... and yes im going on talking about random shit... the stuff that comes out just at the tip of my mind...

and the randomness about this kind of shit is... people have been going on about "Oh... looks is not so important... a good heart is better than just a beautiful face"... BULL SHIT.... you guys want someone good to look at too.... dont lie... personality isnt important.... image is always the first priority... guys still go around saying "hey, chio bu over there".... guys who already have girlfriends also say the same thing....

(now what the fuck is wrong with me? haha im just bringing reality out... girls do the same shit too... and they make US guys feel MORE guilty about it) and hey.... im guilty of this kinda shit too.... but thats just LUST.... its not LOVE... this has got to be the most EMO and B.S post i've ever written... light cheers for the Broken Hearted.... i can finally flirt again... and yes.... everybody says shit about ppl who flirt... but everybody is guilty of flirting around... and YES I MEAN EVERYBODY... (even if ur reading it and bitching about me through your mind i know u're guilty too)

and yes... i'm at Emo status right now.... so until i've found someone to really cherish.... CHEERS for the Single for now, we can stare, and flirt around~ Weet WIC! =))

Linnette what the fuck did u DO TO ME!? im like you now.... a BITCH... and im a fucked up guy.... hahaha

2007-06-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

我爱的人不爱我,
爱我的人我不爱她.

I can sense this is going to be a VERY long post.... so here goes... as the start suggests... i really have no feelings for you... yet in this kind of situation... i'm hurting you... as i said... in this situation i feel guilty.... but 爱情是不能培养的... thats just what i think... as for me.... im quite like in the situation that u are in... im only a friend to the person i like... yet.... i cant just pour it all out... Love's not that simple where theres i love you and you love me... obstacles will of course be faced...
I really dont know how to react to something like this.... and avoiding it isnt helping as it seems... im hurting you... i dont know what to do...

i'll just take some quotes from my friend, LINNETTE's blog. lol ( hope she wouldnt mind)

"Love is a topic.
When you are in love, you share the topic. When you're out of love (early morning thoughts, 2:10am, Me), you're either neutral (Amen to you, if you can do that) or biased against it. Somehow to me, the latter is always appealing. I'm starting to believe that I'm starting to make sense. (Yehyeh, don't give me all the crap about self-comforting. I know it more than you do.)"

When i read it.... i thought hey... this shit IS TRUE!... Linnette you're growing up! hah....

2nd topic..... DREAMS..... i found this topic actually very INTERESTING lol.... my cousins blog... i'll ask if he minds if i put up the link... but yeh... and what he post is actually very meaningful thats right kids.... theres MEANING behind his blog.... yes it may be funny but hey... at the very end.... theres always something to learn about... again... i'll quote

"Don't DREAM too much..... See that word.. Don't dream too much... it's everyone's nightmare and it's even worst if that's your parents saying it..."

Isnt this true? ppl tend to dream too much... why? its cause we desire something thats just too hard to reach.... Impossible to reach i'd just might say... but how about this.... what about if we stop dreaming and actually went for it? HECK we SHOULD go for it... Dreams will be dreams forever.... until you make a change yourself yeh?

"But even know how much it hurts you or how far away your dreams are, you still try to reach for it..... You know why? because it is your dreams that defines who you are.... ; )"

IT IS YOUR DREAMS THAT DEFINES WHO YOU ARE... this is my favourite part... now guys.... isnt this true also? haha... see... meaning and logic... DREAMS DEFINE WHO YOU ARE...

"so, the moral of the story is to..... " Dream big, and learn to take every hits along the way and still move forward" eventually, you'll get closer to your dreams or it will take you even further than your dreams."

This usually just summarizes everything dreams are about.... Its our fuel... our passion... our *target* or AIM in life.... isnt it? Dreams Drive us to LIVE.... yeh.... thats its.....
DREAM DRIVES US TO LIVE OUR LIVES...

Welll... thats the end of the VERY long post? haha..... i'll be back for more...

2007-06-21T21:18:00.000+08:00

MY FAVOURITE SONG ATM!!!
A silhouette waits outside my window
I jump up and I shout to see if your there
There's nothing but cold sharp air.

I wake up, another day without you
Take a breath from cigarettes
I got time to spare, its better when you're not here

Say you love me, you can lie if it is comforting and I
Won't even mind it so bad, won't even find it so sad
Please see that I've changed I sealed the cracks in my window panes
And I, won't even mind it so bad won't even find it so sad…

I'm not sick I'm not weird I'm simply in love
You must try to understand you were sent from above
You say you hate me well that's just fine I will wait till the end of time

Say you love me, you can lie if it is comforting and I
Won't even mind it so bad, won't even find it so sad.
Please see I've changed I sealed the cracks in my window panes
And I won't even mind it so bad, won't even find it so sad today

Say you love me, you can lie if it is comforting and I
Won't even mind it so bad, won't even find it so sad
Please see that I've changed I sealed the cracks in my window panes
And I, won't even mind it so bad won't even find it so sad…

Loving you is the only thing I ever knew
letting go is the hardest thing ill ever do
I don't even mind it so bad
I don't even find it so sad today.

2007-06-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

THE Lost Poem

My love for you grows stronger,
everytime i look at you.

My life for you opens,
everytime i see you.

My passion for your soul,
grows deeper everyday.

My caring for your heart,
never fades away.

I love the way,you make me feel.
I love the way, i know its real.
I love the way, you look at me.
I'll cherish your love for eternity.
With the sky so bright, I see it through.
That i only want to be with you.
With my love up above, your love is like a flame.
You took my heart, and your the one to blame.
Now for you, I swear.
With all my heart I really care.
That my love is forever true, till the end of time, I'm in love with you.

Just something random i found in my phone... saved it for someone... yet never gave it away

Vaunt II Prom PARTY! @ Zouk

2007-05-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

PICTURES FROM CHANGS BBQ
PICTURES FROM CHANGS BBQ
PICTURES FROM CHANGS BBQ
PICTURES FROM CHANGS BBQ
PICTURES FROM CHANGS BBQ

Woah.... Zouk was great... had a really fun time... but it was so blloooddddyyyyy paaccckkkkeeeeedddddd! we waited in line for what? 45 minutes? WTF SIA.... dumb ass line couldnt move faster... there was a fashion show... but who cares? haha once we got our chops we went to great world city 7-11... fucked up far... lol... and yes... we went to 7-11 for our drinks... we had scotch and one more... dunno how to spell and pronounce.. oh well.. some other time... hah... anyway... as usual... dragged my packs down with the help of cigarettes... =)) perfect mixture to spell - HANGOVER -

Most of them went back to Zouk first... while i stayed to have one last guiness strong brew =))... oh yeah... and Basheer had free beer.... dumb fellow he talked to gave him his beer for his pack... but didnt dare to drink... too bad... basheer drank 3/4 of his beer in return... hahaha... S.A.D ass... then me des, refeezal and basheer was too lazy to walk back... so what did we do? TOOK A CAB TO ZOUK... hahaha

Umm then danced.... MY SONG DIDNT COME OUT TILL THE FUCKING END!!!... I WANNA FUCK YOU~!... oh and i must have been really drunk.... i was dancing at the beginning... then i see my behind one girl... then i asked y.k... "this one you want?" but i think he mistake what i asked to be "this one chio anot?" then he shouted " THIS ONE AMANDA LEH!" then i turn behind... ALAMAK!!! lol.... then they say i "jia ba" wtf sia...

Hmm... then dancing dancing.... Basheer pulled nicole and yanti away from some malay fellows... he told me... he want to protect nicholas girl... then i thought ok lah.... then danced lah... then tio tai ji? go out help... come back in... hmm... i danced with Xing Yue until the club closed? yeah should be it lah.... i think my song only came out at 3.45 or 3.30.... I WANNA FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!!!

Changs 17th Birthday BBQ!!!

2007-05-27T15:16:00.000+08:00

ok... let me just skip right thru to the BBQ part... cause i admit i was one dumb FUCK.... they went to buy charcoal at this store... but they didnt tell me.... and they bought trays and picnic mats.... but i didnt recieve the charcoal... cause no one told me they bought charcoal from there... and that fucked up lady never even gave me the charcoal.... dumb bitch.... anyway...

after we got settled and shit... in came the best part of all... LIQOUR! or is it LIQUOR! i dunno how to spell lah... haha... aww man... dragged like... first 3 cups? then i drank for dunno who and who... drank damn lot lah... felt like vomiting... but im a MAN... never vomit... haha ate and stuff.... i was going wild lah.... and MY SLIPPER SPOIL! cb!.... lol.... wah... no more comfortable footwear already loh... -.-

drinking still continued.... dunno what i say lah.. i think i drank 1 cup... then another cup.. dunno whos one... then i shout GIAM LENG EH SAI! (btw my name is giam leng cause of my chinese name, Hsien Loong, Hokkien translation from chinese = giam leng... lol)

all laughing like hell and shit... funny stuff happened that night... cant remember... i took some photos from kims camera... gonna take it from her... might be on friendster... hmm.... either i grab it or she send me thru msn.... will upload or just leave it on friendster for u all to see =))) CHEERS.....

im off... SLEEPY SLEEPY!!!!

2007-05-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

They say,every girl want's to be just like Cinderella...

To have that Prince charming come and rescue her from the evil step mother and horrible step sisters.A Prince charming who would take away all the miseries from her life and take her to his castle,where they would live "happily ever after..."

I hear girls with dreamy eyes say, "Someday my knight-in-shinning-armour will come, and he will kiss away the sad spells cast down on me by this cruel, boring life. My knight-in-shinning-armour who is ever so handsome and strong, who would swear to protect me forever. He will sweep me of my feet, and take me to his arms as we ride away to his kingdom far away... and there, we would live happily ever after..."

Some girls ask, "When will my Clark Kent find me? Will my Superman ever come? To fly me away to the stars, to show me what beauty the world has to give? To turn back time just to take away my pain? To tell me "I will always be around." Will my Clark Kent ever find the courage to tell me how he truly feels? Or will he forever hide behind his glasses? Will my Superman ever give up immortality just to spend his life with me? Oh! How I wish! so that, maybe then we could live our lives together, happily ever after!

Yup, most girls wants to have a fairytale love story. But do they ever come to think and realize that...

Although all love story starts with "Once upon a time... not all of them ends with, they live happily ever after".

Maybe they should ask themselves...

Was Cinderella really happy?

Or is fairytale love story's just too good to be true?

In other words, I've given up... My efforts were futile...

I've done all i can, my best, but it wasnt enough, so i guess I'm not good enough then...

Have fun then...

2007-05-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

yes, i went drinking.... hmm... what can i say yeh??? today was the day my fate was decided i guess... anyway... soccer was damn tiring... they called me "ballack" cause my jersey had a ballack behind... fucking fakes.... my original one lost loh... fucked up bro lost it... haiiz... what can i do anyway??..... then went swimming... today was FUN... we should do this every saturday... but hey... not everyweek we're free.... next week... we shld be going town.... hope all my bros can go town... its been awhile.... sian.... so my fate was decided.... bye... here's a song..... read the lyric

Well it's early in the morning
And my heart is feeling lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But it's driving me so crazy
I dont know if it's right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
It's 5 oclock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weak...
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do I think I'm in love Baby...

[Chorus] Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Now I know you're not my lady
But I'm just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do
I'm going out of my mind
So baby if u let me
Kick it witchu well than maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite
Now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish you'd understand
Cuz I know he can't love u right,
quite like I can
It's 5 oclock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weak...

I'm feeling hopeless at home I dont kno what to do
I think I'm in love

[Chorus] Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
It's an obsession

[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less surene
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and
I dont care what people scream
You're my blessin when
I'm stressin My superfly beauty queen
I'm gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my ma know how
I do We go rendez-vous Mi corazon belongs to you

[Chorus] Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
what am I do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?)
what am I do so wrong? [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart? Amor

DXO but no more EU!?

2007-04-06T18:54:00.000+08:00

Dxo Yesterday was great, as usual, we drank before we went in. But Desmond lost his phone WTF!?... sad sia... Basheer cut the queue again, dunno how many times... haha... everytime we go clubbing he's there to cut the queue and save us all... YES!~ haha... anyway... "Jose" was great, the first raw shot burnt my throat tho... wasnt used to it... 4 weeks i havent been drinking Jose and to restart with a raw, thats mad... i know... LOL... i remained faithful thursday evening... No grinding with any girls... no dancing with any girls... cause theres one particular girl to me...

Theres no more EU! after 3 weeks of assisting... theres no more EU/ YC! OMG... not used to the empty scheduled weekends! what is there to do now!? aww man... aww man!!!! I miss EVERYONE ( hee hee too lazy to list... TO MANY LAH!)... including HER... i wont get to see her so often now....

she is LOVELY
she is IMPORTANT to me...
she is NICE
she is my NECESSITY
she is ENTHUSIASTIC
she is my TINKERBELL
she is in my THOUGHTS all day, everyday
she is my EVERYTHING

although you may think you are not IMPORTANT to me... you are, and to you, i may not be important to you... but i know damn well you mean everything to me... i dont know how you feel right now... yes... but all i want to do is talk to you, tell me everything that is bothering you... thats all i ask... PLEASE? =))

My Tuesday with Jose at St.James Power Station

2007-03-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

haha so well, read the title.... i went to st.james on Tuesday, party was called ROMP 2, anyway, i headed to drink with refeezal, basheer, marcus and mengrong first. i met up with marcus and meng rong for dinner. omg... shld'nt have ate... we went to buy Jose Guervo ( tequila ) and oh my oh my oh my! haha it was DAMN NICE!....

mixed it with coke.... first shot i drank raw out of the 4 of us... then 2nd round meng rong drank raw... then the last one all drank mixed... chang and desmond came when we were about to finish... nearly kena caught by patrolling officers... i drank my shot, which was supposed to be shared with chang all the way! lol... drag until like ki siao... then we went to take a cab... meng rong forgot his I.C so we went all the way to jalan kayu... WTF!?... took pictures with his dog and his skate board... LOL chang so hyper over skate boards... his dog was cute lah...

then headed to St.james power station.... damn freaking crowded... lucky basheer was there... haha cut queue king.... he just cut in... then when ppl ask... we showed his hand and said "we re-entry" then when they said "the other side" he said..." they ask us come here"... LOL nice one? anyway... after that got in and not long after, danced like crazy! hahaha.... lol marcus loooked like he had a great time... his first time clubbing... haha... hmm.... i didnt grind tho... thought it was very disrespectful to girls who only went there to have a great time... but oh well.... i wanted to... but didnt want to.... you be the judge.... haha

after everything ended... a certain situation came up... was damn messed up lah.... some malay guys were just making up a story i guess... haha.... nothing happened tho.... took cab back... and just K.O'd.. haha... lazy to type more lah.... bbye haha

Cheers,
Nicki

2007-03-12T08:54:00.000+08:00

the pictures we took at Clinic

Hmm, yesterday was quite a fun night... after empower U, i went to Clinic... not a doctor kind of clinic just for your info, the club clinic... anyway, i went with, chang, des, jun liang and andy.... there was also nicole, kim and yanti, nicholas couldnt get it cause he forgot his I.C, and his mum didnt want to bring his I.C for him, so he went drinking instead... before all of them came, me and chang went to drink, des accompanied us... it was unusual tho, 1 can of barons and i was high already... haha altho i did drag about ½ the can.... anyway, got into the club and just started dancing...

it wasnt as fun as i expected it to be tho.... kept yawning.... was damn tired from Empower-U already i guess... but still continued to dance till around 1.50 or so... then i couldnt take it anymore... i asked jun liang if he wanted to go drink... i wanted to drink before i go home... so we went to the 7-11 at clarke quay and bought 2 barons, 1 for each of us, and a red bull... he told me if you drink red bull together with beer, it gets rid of the bitterness, BUT, you will get high even faster!.... lol...

i drank about like.... maybe 1/4 of the can? and a little bit of red bull... and i just wanted to go home and sleep already.... i wasnt drunk tho... i could still think straight.... anyway... it was kind of fun overall... chang and my beers got 'coped' lol... he left it in the bushes before we went inside to dance... so anyway... kind of hang overed right now.... still wanna go back to bed..... bbye

2007-03-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

Empower-U from 9th - 11th of march? who else is going on these dates? man oh man! i might just be alone... haha oh well.... blog some other time... bbye

2007-03-03T11:56:00.000+08:00

我要您知道,我总将爱您,但现在我认为您比以前愉快,如此我猜测, 我将离开.
我要您知道,我想念您,谈话与您是最愉快的片刻在我的生活中,但愚蠢地我丢掉了那记忆.
因为我要摆脱所有记忆，我留下一切我知道您，在某处.
我要您愉快, 那是对我最重要的事.
如果您读这，我要您知道，我爱你.

2007-02-08T15:30:00.002+08:00

Been a long time since i posted eh!? haha... my weekend was alright i guess..... No valentines XD ARGH! lol.... nvm i guess... not my time yet... haha hmm havent been drinking yet... and it hasnt been raining.. lol.... i want it to rain.... nicer... =)) hmm I want BARONS! lol... and some vodka... havent been drinking that either... aww man.. need some liqour... hmm... well... blog a little bit better than not at all right? LOL... haha alright.... thats enuf i guess... tired lah... haha CHEERS!

We shall lift up our Goblets of Rum with Joy in our hearts and Heat throughout Our BODIES! part 2 PLUS VIC's and Wei Xiongs BBQ

2007-01-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

Okay... recap of last week... hmm... alright so it was kims BBQ... cooked and ate... lol victor brought rebecca down to the barbeque.. lol.. how NICE... haha... she and victor abit of the same personality... blur blur shy shy abit one.. haha... so anyway... i'll just say we had lots of fun... then we went to walk like... dunno how far... at around 11+ or 12... went to go buy BARONS... lol... chang say drink with straw high faster... so i take straw drink... i only drank one.. lol.. but i high like ki siao... after drinking about 5 mins we all high like crazy... then started to sing "it ends tonight" lol heres 2 pictures

lol... after all this craziness... we went to the jacuzzi...i think thats how u spell it.. anyway... hmm then went to the sauna... wah lau damn hot.. lol... then do pumping inside the sauna... lol... crazy...
not long after.... we finished up the 2nd half of the vodka... then played a few games... after that.. we went to sleep.... haha

VIC's and Wei Xiongs BBQ...

Lol was damn fun lah.... hmm.... dunno how to describe.... i bought 2 barons... got drunk... did stuff i didnt normally do... lol... kinda forgot a whole of the whole evening.... only thing i remembered was... Me, Qi Xiong, Nicholas, Ah le, Victor, Rebecca, Wei Xiong, Peng kai and Wilson i think... dunno his name.. lol... hmm we got caught by the police... OMG... they were just passing by leh... never even got a complain or anything... then tio caught... Ah le was caught for possession of Contraband Cigarettes.... fined $400 leh... 1 pack $200... suey sia... why must this happen!... alright.. thats the end... lol cant talk much cause i kinda forgot almost everything lol...

"For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him."
-Philippians 1:29

P.s- To you who lied.... i dont know what to say...

We shall lift up our Goblets of Rum with Joy in our hearts and Heat throughout Our BODIES!

2007-01-21T19:58:00.000+08:00

Haha... so had chalet this weekend.... hmm Kim and Chien En's Birthday, ( hope i spelt chien en correct)... haha so anyway... lets start from... friday... hmm school was over... had damn lots of homework.... but dun care lah... haha... hmm... went home and got ready then met Chang, Jun Liang, kenny, Yong Jie Chen Hao and Ming hua... they wanted to go buy soccer ball... lol... they wanna go for training sia... they wanna play against their 06' class... so after that and eating at the food court, me and Chang went to get Kim a B'day present... hmm... after that took the MRT to Sembawang... lol

So when we arrived there... we sat outside Coffee Bean ( sun plaza ) and just chit chat relac... waited for Meng Rong, Rasul and Salam to come.... funny sia... after waiting for everybody we went to go buy my "baby" ( VODKA ) lol... expensive sia... $60+.... but worth it lah! hahaha.... decided to take cab to the place... but din know where... so we wanted to ask the taxi driver if can take 5 ppl in his cab... and if he knew where Camberra road was.... but WTH.... all dowan... so we split into 2-3.... 2 people and 3 people... take seperate cabs....

me and chang took a cab... then MR, Rasul and salam took another... we went like... 1 round around the MRT... then stopped at an Ulu ulu bus stop to check the directory... WTF! the meter still jumping!.... it was like a 15 minute walk... but the cab fare was like what? $6.50 sia.... knn.... so near but we also dunno where.. lol... hmm... went to check into our rooms.. after waiting for the "late comers" i shall not mention who... lol... the room not too bad.... hmm... then we went inside the room.. wah DAMN BORING SEH!.... nothing to do..... then alot more people came... hmm... we ordered pizza for dinner... OMG 2 pizza for $70 dollars! but its buy 1 get 1 free... so total we got 4 pizzas for $70... worth it? hmm i dunno... lol... after that we played cards.... then we play drinking game with the vodka... lol... FUN!.... Chang few cups "Mabok" already sia... lol

hmm i think i was a little dizzy and shit.... hmm so went to sleep inside the so called "girls" room... but.... how can it be the "girls" room when chang gets to sleep inside... lol... so i didnt care lah.... went inside... take a pillow and blanket... then striaght away K.O... lol... shall blog about the 2nd day of chalet some other time...

"Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world -- the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does -- comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever."
-1 John 2:15-17

2007-01-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

Haha woke up for mass today... hmm.... my fone spoil sia... miss call i cannot see who miss call me... hmm... after mass i went for the youth session again...not too bad.... SARAH P! u did WELL! along with JEM...haha youth session was BETTER THAN NOT BAD.... good lah okay??? not enough? it was AMAZING! hahha..... after that went to rail mall to eat... at EAT. they say the bar chor mee was good... but it was alright only lah... if they had chilli padi and if the chilli nicer i think it would be the best but.. oh well...

hmm then at EAT. we found out how everybody is connected... like through family and friends and stuff like that... really interesting... hmmm.... alright... nothing interesting anymore... hahaha....

Nicki

" Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?" "
-John 11:25-26

2007-01-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday went for Kanektas Cell Group meeting... thought it would be bored... but wonderfully... it wasnt =)) it was "kind OF" fun i must say... haha.... play this game called "polar bear" or "hunter and bear" anything lah... quite fun... hmmm then we gathered around in a circle and started drawing stuff that discribes us the most.... i drew, the word "Poem" and "friends" my circle of life... i cant live without both of em haha... hmm i drew a computer, handphone and an aeroplane ( ambition: pilot ) haha... also drew a crucifix yup Love GOD... PRAISE HIM!.... alright... hmm... then started sharing about how our week was.. and what we wanted everybody to pray for... i asked them to pray for my O's.. my O level coursework (FnN)... Ah Chang, cause he is lost, he doesnt know what course to choose since aerospace and tourism in ITE was full... but never mind.... im sure he can find a very good course =)).... hmm i also asked to pray for my family... and my sister who has stomach flu... haha

Jerome was very 'cartoony'... haha his character very funny lah... hahha..... then after that... went home.... hmmm..... haha...

Dunno why lah... but these few days dunno why so stressed out..... thinking alot lately.... kinda reflecting and feeling depressed abit abit.... ..... .......

Btw. Sarah P... ur chicken curry was ok ok, the meeting was ok ok not boring haha....

A day full of Praise and Worship, FULL OF ENLIGHTENING

2007-01-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at around 10:30am, called Felix... he said he was going for the youth session after 12... so i went to go mass by myself... hmm but saw Justin and bryan and tim... bryan was sitting with his mom, so i sat with justin and tim... hmm... didnt really talk alot of cock as usual, cause justin was tired... king of cock talking cannot talk cock, funny sia... ok, so after mass... met with felix and everybody else ( sorry too long to name )... then proceeded to the stabler, (youth room), it started off with some praise and worship, nothing to rock n' rollish to jump around to, haha... so anyway... then Charles started talking about the session, how God has a plan for all of us, then suddenly Sarah P, was the next speaker, talking about all the ups and downs in her life, how God had a plan for her, and how it all eventually became well...

Then after the session, we had some light praise and worship, then whoever wanted to be prayed over, could just step up and people from the youth ministry would pray over them, filling ur whole body with the holy spirit, overwhelming you with it.... i went for the "slaying" had too much on my mind.... super stressed out at the first 3 days of school... dunno wat i should do leh.... quit or dun quit? shld i continue?.... dunno wat i should do... really.... so i seek for spiritual help.... i hope God will answer me, and lead me through this part of my life, i know he has a plan for me.... Follow you i will lord.... guide me as you'd always will...

PRAISE THE LORD!....

"How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, "Your God reigns!" "
-Isaiah 52:7

One Song to Summarise my Week

2007-01-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

This song is for Someone who has felt hurt in this week, this song is

Bon jovi's-You Give Love a Bad name ( i changed the lyrics to suit her tho)

She's Shot through the heart and He's to blame
He give love, a bad name
An angel's smile is what you sell
you promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love, got a hold on me
when passion's a prison, you can't break free

Whoa!
You're a loaded gun
yeah, whoa...
There's nowhere to run
No one can save her
The damage is done

(Chorus)
She's Shot through the heart
and He's to blame
He give love a bad name
She played her part and he played his game
He gives love a bad name
He gives love a bad name

You paint that smile on your lips
blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boy's dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye

Whoa!
He's a loaded gun
whoa...
There's nowhere to run
No one can save her
The damage is done

( WILL BLOG FOR REAL TOMORROW haha... bye)

Happy Drunken New Year

2007-01-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

Happy DRUNKEN NEW YEAR!!!! hahahaha Yesterday was fun.... we went to town after 11pm mass..... walked around a little bit... and went to a magic shop the magician was damn "SICK".... wicked sick... crazy fool... his card tricks and coin tricks were superb... hahaha... then went to starbucks... opposite cine one... then saw ah chang and nicole.... haha.... give chang see one magic trick... haha he shocked sia.... ok... so now going back to church for 5.30 mass

when reached there felix was late... bloody fool was the one that needed to serve so we went there...... then he just go there late... never serve... waste our time.. haha.... hmm saw sarah p.... was with her family.... went to lot 1... then ate dinner.... after that walked to felix house.. was like WTH! from LOT ONE TO YEW TEE MRT SIA! HOW CAN YOU SAY NOT FAR!... but boh pian.... no body want to take mrt... haha

when reach felix house.... we bought 1 big bottle of coke... haha... went to the reflective pool.... open up then drink already..... drunk very fast.... look at this picture... hahaha

And i wanted more... so we went to buy tiger beer..... dunno why also... tell them amsterdam they take tiger.... bottoms up lah heck care!!!! hahh..... damn nice....... next year will be the same???? dunnno... hahaha

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!!

"For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies."
-Psalm 57:10

Club MoMo,28th Dec

2006-12-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

Oh hoho it was a smashing GREAT TIME!.... First we all met up at Batok... then Desmond was going " my friend say queue very long leh" then " my friend say queue very short leh"... all dunno wat to do... cause we were supposed to go there earlier.... but we were late.... Ah chang booked for us the tickets already... so we might as well go pay him $12 then take our chances.... taking a cab and rushing down to MoMo... we reached around.... 10 plus i think.... Desmond cut Queued into the front line... NICELY DONE BRO! hahaha..... then almost nearly fight... cause we all wanted to cut infront of him... and the people behind us didnt like it... haha.... too bad for them loh... what can they do... hahaha... anyway... the dancing and all that started around 11 plus... went in ah... immediately got into the mood... dunno why.... was like everybody around us was dancing also.... and no body cared how everybody was dancing.. so what the heck lah... just dance! hahaha....

So.... it came to me that Guys go to clubs for one thing... "grinding" and well... i didnt grind... i just thought it was ungentlemanly... haha... you all know me.... im too innocent... too nice...... too decent... cant do it... hahaha....hmmm after dancing abit... can see that Desmonds friends all
"who were girls" were getting "hunted" so he ask me and Pengkai to help block so that other guys couldnt grind them... so i just stand behind and dance lah.... but i dowan to touch lah... hahah.... really... its not me.... so i just dance behind his friends.... i also dunno who lah... but just protect.... haha... hmmm... nothing much to talk about really.... it was just DAMN fun... undescribable.... but then i started getting dehydrated... around 3 am i was like... cannot tahan lah! must go buy water.... haha keep asking Ah le.. "eh go buy water leh.. damn thirsty"... then after about 15 mins some of us went out to buy water.... wah... come out already my ears like... got that mosquito at your ears that sound.... didnt feel like going back in...getting quite sian... cause the music getting more and more boring.... haha

happened to see kim there.... wah lau... she pay $12 go in and sit down... really damn cool sia.... hahaha when i asked what she was doing here she told me "listening to the music" hahaha..... dunno wat to say lah really.... but had a really great time..... Saw Nigel again... haha.. wah lau... he's the ultimate clubber???? hmmmm dunno lah... haha... well if anything interesting happens i'll pop up another Post... BYE for now.. CHEERS!!!! and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Nicki

"Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another."
-1 John 4:11

2006-12-22T12:09:00.000+08:00

Alright so i didnt blog these few days cause i was kinda bored so now im telling you why...
couple of days back i went to DXO underage party... But before that i went to hospital with Brian, Aaron x 2, Vester, Shue Guan and Nicky ( nope not me ) ... we all met up at Aaron ANGS house first.... haha meeting point... everybody met there first cause everybody was going to V.E after that... so just sit down relac awhile... when we wanted to leave... rained like hell... so boh pian... They say Both (Nicki/Nicky)'s sit at the boot.... wah lau damn squeezy... my head cramp like dunno wat... reached the hospital then went to see Victor... his skin was damn red... when we reached there the doctor even said... Victor you have to stay one more day... you have Liver inflammation and must stay one more day for a scan... wah lau damn sad sia... we went to da bao lunch to eat outside the ward... the non aircon corridor... after eating everybody was like... just smoke here lah... Ka lan... hahaha but then i keep telling them dont lah... cannot smoke at hospital... we went with Vic... went to find a place to smoke... after that i went home... hmm met with Qi xiong and Peng kai... Didnt want to go DXO but then Qi Xiong called Desmond in my face and booked a ticket.. so boh Pian haha

Doors were open at 8pm but i went with my friends at around 11 plus 12... who goes early any way? haha.... so went to eat... met up with Qi xiong, Ah le... Peng kai and wei xiong for dinner near west mall around 9 plus.... then met with Desmond then leave together... around 10 plus 11 we met with ah chang.. Ying Kwang and Yen keat... haha alot of people yea.... walked to esplanade.... got our tickets... then went to one side and drank Vodka with coke... haha one whole big gang sia... alot of people... hmmm after meeting everybody was around 18 people i think.... hahaha anyway we queued damn long.... haha we all like nothing to do.... keep disturbing one another.... i was damn tired lah.... didnt bother much... haha... when we reached the christmas tree... we just plucked out all the decors and we started throwing them at people...

So... until about 3 plus... wth! paid $15 to queue damn long.... wasted lah.... shit.... hahaha... saw Nigel also.... wah lau we were damn sad... haha.... hmmm after that around 4 plus went to Lau Pa Sat to eat.... borrowed money from Yen Keat.... we just sat around... talked and drank scotch... haha feels like tongue getting burned.... hmmm... around 6 people started leaving already.... so at 6 i waited with Qi xiong at the Bus stop... haha he keep asking me this asking me that... around 7 am i reached home.... Qi Xiong went back to my house to sleep sia... he say he to tired... and wanted to talk... he needed someone to listen to his problems... so i say ok loh... when i reached home my father looked at me and was like "WTF!?" haha so anyway on the aircon then started talking... talk until about 8 plus... i think nearly 9? dunno lah... haha aiyah.... i want to DRINK MORE! AIM: DRINK WITH LEON IN MALAYSIA! CHEERS!

Nicki

"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things."
-Colossians 3:2

Day Full of HAPPINESS and Day full of Sadness

2006-12-18T20:37:00.001+08:00

haha okay so today woke up at around... 10:45am... was waiting for Brian and Aaron cause they went for reporting... meeting them before going to collect results, anyway, we met at Macs, had lunch together then go follow Aaron cut hair.. haha his hair now like Mr. Nicks (someone who works at V.E) hair... anyway waited for Meng Rong, was around 1.30pm and sent Aaron off cause he going work by bus... took cab with Meng Rong and Brian.... when we reached the school we met Victors mother at the School canteen, cause Victor has Dengue Fever ( i think thats how you spell it), so anyway... met up with all my classmates and went up to the hall to collect results

Wah Lau waited very long just to collect results sia... was like 2pm when we went up to the hall... then 3 o'clock then collect results... waited damn long.... then was like talking to Mogan throughout the hour... talking lots of cock and insulting one another ahaha.... thats what we do all the time anyway.... just to remove all the nervousness inside of us.. haha... then when everybody was damn nervous i just told Mogan "Its Prayer TIME!" hahaha we both laughed lah... but then i just prayed while he was laughing... thinking i was not serious... hmm then he made a Theory which was actually true.... "Whoever has the Orange paper( Book list ) is confirm to go sec 5" ok then it was true lah.... Mrs Lai was too lazy... she just talked to one of the students then 2 of the parents then she just say "whoever i called you come and take your report book from me" so yea... i was called WEE HEE! 6 points! YES! 1 for english, 2 for math, 3 for science
AND NO im not KIDDING its really 1,2,3... so nice~....

But.... I was feeling quite sad... cause most of my friends didnt make it... Especially Brian and Victor... they both had 11 points! wah lau! damn suey sia... as i saw the sadness and disappointment on their faces... i could almost feel their suffering.... they studied so hard... so MUCH but they just didnt make it... by one POINT!.... wah damn sad lah.... Went to Drink and Shio with Meng Rong and Brian.... wah i could really feel the sadness and i could almost read his thoughts like... he was feeling so much of a failure to himself and his parents.. letting everybody down... and as we parted ways... i felt so helpless.... i couldnt do anything to help my BRO out of the hole he was in....

So i went back home... bathed and got dressed.... went with Felix to go "work"... met with Geraldine and Her supposed "boyfriend" ( i think... haha)... wah lau... keep raining then cannot go work ( cause we were supposed to go give flyers to the residents in the bukit timah area ) so yea... we went to play LAN.... hahaha... then Ceci messaged me.... called me gay summore... was like WHAT? haha..... ok then play Lan then come home loh... sian sia today... yawnz.... TIME FOR WOW! haha (world of warcraft! AIM: /played =5 days level 60! ) woo!

P.s Pray for Victor and Brian, Victor to get well soon and to choose the right path in his life, Pray for Brian to get onto the right path and whichever he may choose i will support them always...

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
-John 16:33

2006-12-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

Haha so this entry is for yesterday and Today

well didnt blog yesterday cause i stayed home all day lah... damn sian so nothing to blog about.... you guys cant really blame me for not blogging haha what do you want me to say? "oh today i eat sleep eat sleep" haha, fun meh? no right? haha but i wrote a poem yesterday it can be found in the "Profile/Poem of the Day/week section" hahha if i have the mood i'll write one everyday... so yea hmmm yesterday eat sleep write poem so interesting haha NEXT

so today woke up at around 9.30am haha wanted to clean my room... was messy like dunno wat... all thanks to my brother, seriously i hate my brother, im going to ask him to move out of my room when he comes back out, i mean WTH he doesnt even clean up after himself... he wipe his nose, he throw on the floor... wth? yes i know and the dustbin is just at the door.... haha so ok... i had no mood to clean it by myself damn dirty, so i ask my mother clean with me... but she didnt even help at all... what can i say loh... so after i clean was around 11 oclock haha OH NO! supposed to meet Felix at 12, today going to SHAW TOWER to buy some Bicycle decks haha damn nice lah the deck hahaa STYLE...

no anyway... i bathe and bla bla bla... i at the bus stop waiting.... so i thought that from my house all sbs bus can go to jurong east mrt... but... i was wrong haha i anyhow take 157... when it was 11:45 i think.... i smsed Felix i told him that my bus maybe going all the way to boonlay haha... i was too lazy to get down the bus lah... haha dowan to go down then take back then go to jurong.. haha... then i reach the jurong east mrt after taking the boon lay one... haha around 12:30 then reach jurong east mrt.... Felix damn blur... he walk inside the mrt... then never look around... then he sms me.. "where are you" so i smsed back look behind you... haha he damn blur lah...

ok reach Bugis (cause bugis is near shaw tower) then Felix dunno the place so Felix said... take cab lah... if not later get lost... omg the cab driver just turn right then go all the way striaght loh FELIX IM GOING TO KILL YOU! hahaha... ok lah ok... reach there find the magic shop already... also CLOSED! so never mind.. i was hungry anyway... went to the food court... saw this PORK CHOP RICE SHOP... it had the channel U food show the picture so i thought it had to be damn good and also alot of people queing for it.. haha... it was ok lah i guess.. oh yea! then suddenly MEL, BRYAN and BRYANS mum was there also.. haha i heard someone shouting my name, haha it was MEL haha... Bryan said the skate shop was damn small ( cause that time go skate park some one handed us a brochure saying that there was a skate shop at SHAW TOWER) so any way... he said dont go... damn small so i didnt want to go already... haha

then go magic shop wah lau the magician can talk cock alot... which is good cause that was like a distraction to move our attention to him and not the cards.. haha tricky guy... anyway his tricks were cool... haha then i stood there thinking... which one nicer? orange or green? then he said... get the orange its really nice... the green one is sold out.. so its going to become a limited edition cause they're not making anymore.. then i was like AIYAH! i wanted the green one.. haha...so i bought the orange one... but it was nice lah... i learnt how to Fan and stuff... haha i cant show you what i've learnt... =xx just cannot i must practise more first haha... then we went to lucky plaza... for what? i also dunno... just had the feeling that the orange deck was for show and not for practising u know? haha

went to lucky plaza and bought a blue colour deck... also damn style.. hahaha then went to Felix house... wah lau damn ulu ulu sia..... i felt like a stranger going to Yew Tee... hahaha wah lau cannot take it.... must skip to the ending ending.. haha bla bla bla we played 7 hand poker... i kept losing..... stupid game...... hahahaha... ok then i took cab home... lazy sia... i dun like taking mrt... prefer the bus.. haha

went home... marcus wanted the Warcraft 3 cd and i wanted his Photoshop Cd so we traded then we just relac downstairs... then i wanted to go home hahaha had something to do... anyway... hmmm nothing much really happened lah.. haha

P.S i love you

"As long as Uzziah sought the LORD, God gave him success. ... But after Uzziah became powerful, his pride led to his downfall."
-2 Chronicles 26:5b,16a

2006-12-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

Fcuk, i cried my bloody hearts out for you
i ripped out my soul for you
and i felt more of the pain because i pulled the plug
because I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH
"To hold on to something longer,
the harder it is to let it go"
you're flying to Australia, so IT IS INEVITABLE
why grow more memories and hurt more?
you think i dont give a shit about you?
but, u didnt cry at all
and given the fact that you didnt cry at all tells me one fcuking thing
I WAS LIVING A FCUKING LIE
thanks for NOTHING though,
still wishing you all the damn best,
hope to never see you again, hope to never think of you again
you are so arrogant...the fact that you didnt cry didnt hurt me
its the fact that you actually had the cheek to say your so pround you didnt
even feel a thing totally killed me....
and now our true colours have shown
man oh man was i lucky to have missed on that colour.

BYE
and
Thanks again

2006-12-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

Wah lau... today wake up at 10 loh.. haha going to meet Felix, Bryan, Cecilia and Jermaine at Lot 1 before leaving for town, haha i ask ceci help me buy bubble tea since she going to buy, so i ask her buy lychee ice blended without pearl... then i met with Felix then Bryan came soon after then Ceci came with my drink, and then jermaine came ok so leave for town on the bus... then we all taking 190 mah... then got this indian family... cb... they cut through from the 190 queue to get to other bus, then shout EXCUSE ME... i scold them FUCK YOU LAH then they walk pass.... haha ( actually i never scold but what sia indian damn fierce i dont dare sia haha )... anyway wah lau the bus ride damn long... haha reached at far east there... all shop not even open loh... so we went to LJS to eat breakfast... all of us sick except ceci but then all eat LJS.. good sia... fight fire with fire... haha... so we went up to revoltage first but then walked to pescados, t-shirt damn nice haha so just try and buy instantly.... but then revoltage closed anyway... so too bad for them... then go buy 3 quarter pants omg EXPENSIVE! $45 bucks but still nice.... hah had to borrow$20 from Felix... so walk walk walk... then walk to takashimaya cause bryan wanted to see how pearly looks like so we walk and walk but then Felix called then ask, then she today not working... ALAMAK! haha....

So Jermaine suggested we go watch movie... then i was like GO WATCH "OPEN SEASON!"... haha Felix said dont watch stupid CARTOON lah... then i told him... eh its not cartoon.... its A MOVIE WITH A GREAT STORY LINE ONLY MADE IN ANIMATION... haha but then i no money so must borrow from Bryan... haha im a poor piece of shit lah.... cause mum never give $$$ and then i wasted all of my remaining money on the clothes i bought today... haha then go watch open season... haha

LOL I CANT BELIEVE IT! DURING THE MOVIE I "KUNZ it"... haha starting of the movie was like ZzZzZzzzZZZzz haha but it was ok lah... haha... come out of the cinema everybody was like WTH@! sTUPID CARTOON! i was like no.... STUPID MOVIE WITH A GOOD STORY LINE IN ANIMATION haha....then go eat dinner.... early dinner lah... i ate the western food lah.. haha sick still eat... confirm die early... anyway.. after that eat ice kachang.. haha omg we messed up the whole table lah... stupid meow meow dunno how to use spoon one... cannot eat properly..

then we all went to skate park... omg feeding mosquitoes.... haha skaters were okay... but i think the bloody bikers were just posing... DO NO SHIT go skate park ride bicycle go up and down the half pipe... thats all.... haha

P.s I Love You

"Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited."
Romans 12:16

2006-12-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

Wednesday 6th December 2006

Woke up at 10 plus in the morning today, haha Felix is coming by my house to teach me magic and doesnt know how to get here hahaha, anyway, Bryan is also coming by, he said he's damn bored at home, always nothing to do... haha so i met with Felix first went to market and eat.. wah lau! Felix ate so much for just $2.70, cheat sia... haha i bought beef brisket rice for 4 bucks loh.. haha, i put many many red cut chilli ( chilli padi ) then i eat all sia... wah lau! super shiok! and ultra hot loh... haha can die.... sweat like dunno wat... then people like keep looking at me... my face damn red... haha... then i go buy sugar cane + lime, damn nice, cooling and refreshing, haha then went to go meet Bryan...

While waiting for Bryan, Felix showed me some card tricks ahaha, i thought i was damn cool lah... i loved his black deck the most, although i wanna go find the black ghost deck haha, Felix say can find for $20, (hint hint!: Christmas present? anyone?) haha then dunno why suddely Bryan pop out, haha dunno where he come from, anyway then go back to my place, on the comp then ... internet explorer spoil, haha must call "the guy" wah lau when i call the singnet technical support right i actually said, "hi im looking for the guy" then after i realised i said it, i put down haha, dont dare say my name, so i called then just do one step then fix i was like wah lau, i also can do..... just damn lazy to think... haha ok then we keep playing card, then Felix also showed us some lame tricks loh, dumb cat, anyway i played 2 people tai di with Bryan, haha damn interesting, i anyhow make up the game one, but still fun haha, i kept losing the first few round lah... but then i was like how can i keep losing one? then i bounce back i win him back haha... watched more magic trick then the guys got hungry so now is 6 plus going to be 7

haha so we went to market go eat hokkien mee, haha hokkien mee was "POWER!"~ haha but Felix still say Toa Payoh one nicer... is it? i dunno i still think Bukit Timah Market Hokkien Mee is "POWER~!" haha then they both went home... i think Felix is sad, cause i didnt send him to the interchange like i said i would oh well... haha SORRRY lah.... i lazy + got business + got something i needed to do lah....
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Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end?

There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting:it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a lovethat was meant to be, a love that was.
At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. And we must forget not because we have to but because ke always reminds you of her. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other.

I don't know if it's worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "...and they live happily ever after."
Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up.

It's over. She's gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled. Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.

The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: 'He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.' Now I have told you."
Matthew 28:5-7

2006-12-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

Okay so today woke up at 9 plus! wah haha early right? i know... damn you FELIX hah... we went town today my aim : NEW CLOTHES... his AIM : wat movie and go see PEARLY ( he calls her PEAR) haha... but okay he didnt want to see her for any intimate issues its just a friend friend basis yea FELIX?... so we met at 11:40 at Bukit Batok Interchange, we waited around 12 for the bus, 106 haha we talked alot lah really... amazing loh, never really knew we were so close! brother brotherly close you know? so we bought the 1.30pm ticket for casin0 r0yale 7 haha before that we went to arcade lah... we played DATONA~! i think thats how u spell it, so okay 1st round right i put in coin, choose beginner, choose manual, then dunno wat happen i put my gear to 4, press the accelerate then my whole screen only can see grass and trees cannot even see the road or any cars! OMG! as expected i lost lah... ok 2nd round try another car, insert coin, choose beginner, choose manual, put gear to four, then press accelerate, vroom vroom can see my car for like 0.99s then dunno wat happen can only see the map on the right hand side loh.. haha i try to drive just by looking at the damn map! haha my best time was 23 seconds damn i still lose, this time i "buey song", i try the last car, with my last coin, with the last few minutes before it was time to enter the cinema, so again, insert coin, choose beginner, choose manual, put gear to four and accelerate... WOO HOO! can see the bloody car! its BLACK! STYLE! haha the graphics suck lah as always but hey! black style ok!

so, i was 1st for the 1st-5th lap haha then on the 6th lap i hit the wall at the super sharp curve, lost speed then FELIX took over, then he was like "bye bye" so i was super "shio" already i was like "KNN! i put in 3 token i cannot even win one round ah!" then dunno wat happened he turned then he hit the wall then his car overturned at the first turning (NOTE: its not the super sharp one, its the first turn haha) first time i see loh, then when i pass him i was like BYE BYE haha then i won lah! so fun! ok then after that we go buy popcorn haha got free voucher when we buy the movie tickets $1.00 off for the FAMILY COMBO, ( family combo consists of 1 large popcorn and 2 medium drinks... i think) so the total was 7.10 (6.10 after the voucher) cause we change the drink to ice lemon tea, so anyway on the way up, i told FELIX, eh u havent return me the money for the tickets leh, then he was like i got leh... just now popcorn i give $10 leh, then i was like i give u back $5 leh... then was like think think think, then i said aiyah forget about it lah.. after movie then say...so the movie was damn great! haha, after the movie still discussing over the movie, so we went to REVOLTAGE cause like i wanted to buy shirt mah... omg the shirt damn nice but pocket no money and scared that posb not enough, so we went to b1, withdraw $50 then go back up.. then when i try the shirt i was like wth! the collar damn tight loh! cause its the shirt is actually two shirts sown together to look like one look damn wierd.... dowan buy... haha evil sia... oh yea then james was waiting at ngee ann city, so we chiong there then we went to find Felix's PEAR but then she like not there...

omg wasted like 30 mintues of my life lah! haha so we went to the cinelesiure 9th floor play dota and cs... haha omg loh $7 for 2 hours i want to burn it down! haha and OMG PUGNA WAS DAMN STRONG! guessed who used pugna???? hmmm....... Nope Not Felix.... NOPE not JAMES...... YES ITS ME! haha =)) expected lah i guess haha wat can i say =xx but we didnt lose loh.... bloody hell we paid for 2 hours then they really 2 hours wth... we playing game half way cannot extend one loh... i still think TIMAH AH BAO BEST! haha then going back le.... go back to taka to find Felix's PEAR again and finally she was there loh! and wth! she want us to buy a card! haha im not going to show u guys the card loh... i'll upload on friendster thru my fone lah i think can.... haha then take bus back home... alamak in the bus me and Felix were like talking so much until it reached to a certain part of a certain topic where we both clashed loh really.... it was like wah lau.... suddenly feel damn sad... damn depressed and shit....cause we actually clashed on a certain time and event in our lives... haha oh well...

P.s I love you

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I'll love you forever
With all of my heart.

He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's. ... You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you."
-2 Chronicles 20:15,17

2006-12-05T09:07:00.000+08:00

2nd December 2006, Confirmation Day

Ok so i woke up at 9.30 for an 11 am mass, haha we were supposed to meet at 10.30am to collect our paper, our card and our name sticker. Mine was "Conor 11" ( cool right? haha the terminator name, my sister found it for me lah haha =)) and the number was our sitting position ) so anyway wah everybody was damn nicely dressed lah, haha i of course was used to wearing long sleve shirt, black pants, leather belt and leather shoes, but all of the guys were like, WAH LAU I LOOK DAMN WIERD LAH! haha the girls also nicely dress lah i have to say... hmm there was only 1.... haha CECILIA!!!! SHE WAS WEARING A DRESS! ahahahahah! its like ONCE IN A LIFE TIME! too bad no camera lah... haha... woo hoo!@ Nadia came for my confirmation! wah! all the way from tanamerah leh! she took cab all the way from there! ( and if you guys are wondering, no, Nadia is not a Muslim or a Malay, Shes an Indonesian-Singaporean Catholic) haha she was damn shy lah! she sat with my parents while i went back with all the confirmants there, she never spoke alot, like always keeping quiet one, haha NAD MUST BE MORE ENTHU! MUST BE MORE OUT GOING! LIKE ME! hah =xx, so bla bla bla then ok the arch bishop was there and he just anointed everybody with the oil after we renewed our baptismal vows. i think its kinda wierd but i think i was the only one that felt overwhelmed by the holy spirit at that point, i felt that i needed to do more to love God, and on that day i prayed like ALOT, dont know why, oh and another thing happened, i actually talked to stef, hmm, over the years i never really talked to her lah, hmm dunno why, she always looked so fun, outgoing and enthu but dont know why i never really talked to her, shes actually very friendly haha and before all this, we never even spoke to each other, not a single word. So yea after mass everybody was like yea! FREEDOM haha our confirmation cert was like a passport out of church we were like YEA! duneed come already! haha but then i was like, is this really the end of me coming to worship God and praising him? so i asked around and hey everybody was like JOIN THE YOUTH MINISTRY! so yea, im going to join too haha =)) oh yea and we have this Youth Ministry Outing this Sunday at 2pm at Botanic Gardens so i kinda like ran off cause everyone else was eating the buffet at church and i of course was having lunch with my family and my aunty , cousins and most importantly! NADIA! so yea even at dinner she was like so so quiet. we shared one chicken teriyaki set and one green tea ice cream, of course there was unagi chawamushi ( i think thats how u spell it, u know the japanese steamed egg?) haha aiyah too shy Nadia too SHY! hehe =)) so anyway after eating we went to Asia Box, Bukit Timah Shopping Centre B2 , haha thats like my family's lifestyle shop (not owned by MY FAMILY but as in my uncle aunty bla bla bla) , so if anybody needs to buy furniture or anything go there haha forget IKEA! =)) so we went back to my house there, Nadia and I sat at the playground bench, she said to me "what kind of playground is this! no SWING!" i was like haha it doesnt need to have a swing to be a playground lah... then we went to plaza sing at around 2 plus our plan was to watch movie! but... she told me she needed to go home at 3, so i was like what? huh? why? she was like dunno i need to be back at three going out with my sister, then i was like ok loh... then i did nothing much my aunty left at 3 that day so i went home, play computer and watch tv loh... BORING LAH ... hahaha oh then i read JEMs BLOG 15th Nov i think, its where the most inspiration to love God came from, reading Jems Blog is like giving you all the motivation and inspiration to love God even more, on 15th Nov it talks about Jem and his Sword from an angel or from God, he could feel the weight but he couldnt see it, it was really there tho... wah u guys should read that entry very NICE =))

"My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, LORD, I will seek."
Psalm 27:8

2006-12-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

Well the past few days i've been in church camp... and let me tell you, it was amazing... =)) ok, so we start off on the first day,

Day 1, 30th November 2006

haha i packed my bag last minute and u know what? my bag was FREAKING BIG LAH!, can fit a body inside.... no really my bag can, ok so enuf about that cause someone else brought a bigger bag! 2 times of mine! haha I called him "around the world in 80 days" so ok its damn hot then bla bla bla, ok praise and worship ( huh? p&w? lame lah, makes you looks stupid ), yup thats wat everyone thought it was... ok so for the first P&W i was jumping along to the music... but apparently i was the only one jumping apart from the facils lah... like damn pai seh, look like retarded person haha so ok dinner, supper, bathe, nothing much on day 1 ( BORING! ) actually there was quiet time which i used for smoking! WEEE!!! haha

(P.s: I love you)

Day 2, 1st December 2006

Ok so like i woke up at 6:30 in the morning to take a freaking shower!!! and reporting time was 8, kiasu right? haha, but i wasnt alone, felix came along, damn cold lah the bloody water, then ok breakfast then more P&W, then i realised that someone "pa johor" on me ( and no, its not spray anything, its a term used for attract attention or so i am guessing) anyway, i was kind of like.... okay.... (smiles all the way!) but OI! i got a girlfriend already whats THIS AH! haha so ok ok lah..
so ok... there was a healing session at night, after confession (which only took me like 1 min cause there was this chinese father who was ultra fast haha) so anyway,we had P&W again it was like super fun cause everybody was into it ( FINALLY! I DONT LOOK LIKE A RETARD! YESS!!!) ,wah healing i was like... im sorry for this for that, then in the end like no effect so ok, then the leader of the session was like "if theres anyone who need to be healed physically or broken free from an addiction please come forward" then i was like OK GO TIME! TIME TO FREE MYSELF FROM SMOKING! so i go there acting like very innocent then i walk up to him and i said oh, i have an addiction to smoking, then i close my eyes then i want to fall but like i resisting to fall (which you are not supposed to do) then i like damn sad lah.. like everybody around me falling backwards then im the only one like no effect, so i walked back to the back of the room and there was FELIX! WOW like he damn strong lah... need 7 people to pray over him and he still NEVER FALL!, we one or 2 people already we like dropping and falling, he like that still standing... power~ then after that everybody was like WE WANT PRAISE AND WORSHIP! WE WANT TO ROCK! WE WANT TO JUMP!

Day 3, 2nd December 2006

Ok wake up like what sia! time to go at 4 oclock! i dont want to go home!! cause P&W was so fun! we like, wanted to appreciate god even more? then after we pack everything up Felix said that Jeremy Tan had a sword during a session one time, so when Jem came we asked him and he was like look at the bible (aiyah i forgot the book of, chapter and verse! aiyah!) so anyway i was like WOW a sword! that only inspired me to love GOD even more i mean our God is an Awesome God yea! then another healing session wah this time... really, duneed to say anything the person just walked up to me then pray over me... i was like damn shiok then i resist, i opened my eyes then she say dont resist the holy spirit, dont be afriad, its a calm and gentle spirit, so i was assured and i desired for the holy spirit to just consume and come into me, so in my heart i was like "God, take over me, i want u to overwhelm me Lord, i put all of my faith and all of my trust into your hands, God, take me and never let me go Lord". Then i was like *poof* i fell down, i felt calm, at peace, full of gentleness then i got up then i like buey tahan, cannot take it... so i lie back down, then the peace and gentleness came back, after that summore P&W and everybody and i mean EVERYBODY was HIGH on JESUS!!!! WOO I LOVE YOU GOD! PRINCE OF PEACE! then ok go home time, haha i was like CHIONG AH! but then i like ah... dowan lah... dun so bad then sit for a while, haha aiyah! write e-mail write phone number then later, i chiong out but when i left i was like felling empty, like not so high already.
ok i think my hands tired, i write about my confirmation day tomorrow haha

Ps. I Love You

"Do not be afriad, I will SAVE you. I have called you by name, you are MINE. When you pass through deep waters, I will be with you; your troubles will not overwhelm you. When you pass through fire, you will not be burned; the hard trails that come will not hurt you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy God of Isreal, who SAVES you. I will give up Egypt to set you FREE, I will give up Sudan and Seba. I will give up whole nations to SAVE your life, because you are PRECIOUS to me and because I LOVE you and give you HONOR. Do not be afraid, I AM WITH YOU!" - Isaiah 43:1-5

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